The Youth In You

 My aunt showed me a wonderful writer named Andy Rooney. He's one of the writers where he can say only a few words, but it has a great impact upon you and really makes you think. One of his metaphors are, " I've learned.... That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes. " People always put such an emphasis on how important it is to live your teen life. This is the exact reason why. The older you become, the faster your life slips aways like grains of sand. Slowly but surely, you'll look at your face and it won't be so smooth anymore, that belly will be a little fuller than it once was, and your youth spirit will fade away into the adult mentality. ( Of course, everyone will always still have the kid in them. )

In Their Shoes

It is so difficult listening to another person tell you what your life is. I received an e-mail that my aunt had sent me, regarding the way I have been for the past six months or so. It is such a depressing thing when you hear and take a look at what other people see in you. I feel like when I read things about me and how people view me, I wish I could be in there shoes. I could be that kid at school that I never talk to, or that mom that tries her best to understand her daughter and why she distances herself from her. That sister who hurts when she hears and sees what her little sister is doing. That story book anonymous voice that knows everything that is going on in that person's life and head. But that is exactly it. I guess I do see how others see it, but I don't understand why I am so immune to it. Or maybe I am not?

Fear

I was flipping through some old notebooks and came across a really interesting quote. It stated," The fearless are merely fearless. People who act in spite of their fear are truly brave." ( James A. LaFond-Lewis ) It is impossible to believe someone is fearless. As a child I would look at my father or older brother and think," Wow, they aren't afraid of anything. " But now that I'm older I realize things are never what they seem. But within this quote it is saying that the people  that have no fear are just fearless. This really stands for nothing and proves nothing. But those that do fear things, which consist of my father and brother, and still continue on to walk into what they fear makes them brave and it counts for something. Everyone has always has a fear; it's the action that you take towards that fear that makes you who you are or what kind of characteristic you have as a person.

Life Changing

Not too long ago I saw one of the most impacting plays that I have even seen at my Grandmother's church. It made me really open my eyes and relieze a lot of things. The story line was a true event that happened to one of the men based off of one young woman he had seen within his college. This girl dedicated her life to god, and went to a missions trip in the Andes Mountains. The most bizzare way to even get killed would be to die by a struck of lightening, and this is exactly how she dies. Slowly but surely, the people around her were effected by it and one young man committed suicide. I took away from the play that through times of great grief, as the people around this young woman suffered, you should always love on people and encourage them. You never know what a person might be going through until you see through there eyes.

Friendship

This weekend was completely wonderful. It was a chance to re-connect with my friend, Brenda. Iv'e been so busy with school and volleyball, that it was nice when this friday my season ended. Yesturday was when she came over, and it was such a great time chillin together once again. We talked about old times and picked up on our friendship like there was never a gap or break at all. That's when you know when you have a true friend. It is when they never leave you; even if you fall short on your part of being a good friend. Our friendship is better than ever if anything stronger and it was beautiful seeing her again. I can't wait to share many more memories to come!

A Wonderful Thought

I love Spanish class and my teacher. He probably thinks I am the weirdest student when I pull out a paper and write down what he says, but I can't help but scribble down his meaningful statements. Friday he said, "Could you imagine how the world would be if we could all see each other's problems or were transparent? Like, we had x-ray vision or something that looked only at problems? There would be no respect for each other. Instead, we fake it; or not fake it but just put them way back and try and be the very best we can be. That's all we can do." It amazes me what other people can come up with and what they imagine. It really made me think what would it be like if everyone could see each other's problems. No one would be perfect, and you would know so much about a person. There wouldn't be problems like stealing, or lieing, so would that make the world perfect? A lot to think about....

Hope

Last night my brother said a beautiful thing. While sitting in my room discussing the disappointment my father left upon us, he sighed and said, "False hope is worse than no hope at all. " I completely agree with him. If you have no hope, there is no loss in whatever it may be. But if you put even the smallest amount of hope into someone and they do not follow through with their word, it hurts that much more. You lose not only the hope you once had, but the trust that you instilled within that person. The truth is better than being lead into believing in something that will not come into play.